Milestones

Hello, lovelies! I think we’ve just learned by now that promises aren’t kept by bloggers during finals… *cough cough* I failed *cough cough*.

But wow, I think this is something to be celebrated.

I remember when I first joined. I remember the two weeks of persuading my mother to let me have an author blog, the thrill of my first follower, doing Kellyn Roth’s blog tour. That, in my opinion, was the highest honour. Not only was a published author acknowledging my existence, it was a good published author who was my age. Kell had the talent and the determination to do what I couldn’t: publish a book. And I, with maybe five or six folowers who struggled to get their own novel to 10,000 words, was uniquely asked to be a part of the blog tour.

If fetus me could be noticed, so can you ^.^

Anyways, I say all that to say: I’ve come a long way in a year.

Yup. It’s been a year, two days, and about an hour since I created this blog. Who knew? WordPress did, apparently. They sent me a notification two days ago. (Shows you how active I am…)

Anyways, since then, I’ve written three novels. Together, they came to about 70,000 words. In my mind, that was not good. how could that have happened? How was I legitimately so bad at writing that three novels of mine amounted to 70k, while other writers wrote 70k in a single novel? I became so depressed I almost quit writing altogether.

That was when River of Silence presented itself in my face.

Beautiful, wasn’t it? A book that illustrated having beautiful talents, yet still getting lost in the void of invisible. It would follow Aberfa and tell of her journey to the River while trying desperately to be heard by someone, something. Excited, I took to this new idea.

I fell short.

Ironic, isn’t it? When you have a great idea, yet you can’t seem to properly express it, your self-confidence takes a really heavy blow. It drags you into questioning and self-doubt, down into a deep pit of writer’s block that seems bottomless and beginningless.

For at least a month now, I’ve been battling this author’s depression. I’ve heard that writer’s block is tough, yes, but nobody prepared me for this grueling work. Articles claim that all writer’s block is inescapable, but does this paticular dark pit have any defining moments, or is it just a void where you’re not sure if you’re even falling?

Nobody seems to have answers to this. To be honest, neither do I. Maybe there’s another side to this, but it all looks pretty dark – and it has for a while.

But suddenly, it clicked.

Is this not what my main character is feeling?

Is this not what Yina feels?

Later, I might do a character study on Yina. Even better, that might be a part of my blog tour, so I can see how my character looks through someone else’s eyes.

Will I even have a blog tour? I don’t know. I don’t know if this book will ever hit Amazon, or if I’m too small to be noticed by the big people. But all I can do is hope, right?

“Even if hope is useless… if it’s stupid and misleading… if there’s no point to it… in this whole universe, can anybody really do anything but hope?

“We are humans who you can’t even see on the microscope of everything. Hope is all we’ve ever really had.”

I hit a milestone today. As of this minute, River of Silence has 21, 609 words. I’m officially in the middle part of my first story, the story that I will see through to the end. I don’t know if anyone will ever buy it, I don’t know if it will ever even hit the shelves, I don’t know if this struggle is even worth anything.

But man, sometimes it’s fun.

“Aghast, I must wander to the edge of the waters…”

                            ~Sel

Advertissement and an Update

First, the ad:

http://konaonline.proboards.com

Hi guys! Please, please, please check this out. It’s been up for awhile and nobody has joined, but I really want to get this site up and running. It’s a sort of RPG game called Kona Online, based off of the popular anime Sword Art Online. Your character lives in the real world, and they dont even have to know the other characters in their reality. However, they’re all joined together in the world of Kona Online, a full-dive virtual reality game. You don’t have tob e involved in the gaming part, though. You can just roleplay in the real world!

Please check it out, and I hope to see you there!Read More »

Random Post

We had a very cold winter. It got all the way down to 40 degrees! Unbelievable.

Now, it’s about 70 or so. We’re getting into springtime, yay!

Can you believe that it’s already March? Time has passed so quickly! I have three dance recitals this weekend – two on Saturday, one on Sunday – and I’m definitely freaking out. I’m excited to be able to glorify God through dance, but at the same time I’m freaking out because I have one day until the goshdarn show.

If you read my last blog post that I did yesterday (or the day before… or last week… what is time) then you’ll notice that I accidentally slipped something: I’m publishing a book in the fall.

That was incorrect. I’m aiming to publish it kind of midsummer.

Honestly, I might finish it this month and get right into the editing process in April (Not you, McLauren, the month).

But here is the purpose of me telling you this: I’m having a bookcover contest!

I don’t care if you think your art is crap. I don’t care if your art actually is crap. My art is crappier than yours, which is why I accept all people to enter! Please comment on this post if you’re willing to enter, and send your covers to me at catalto1@gmail.com !

I have a hardcover front already, but I need a back for the hardcover (you have two summaries to choose from, lucky ducks) and a front and back for the paperback!

Your deadline is April 1st. In those days and at that time, I will make a righteous branch sprout from David’s line, and he will do what is just and right in the lands… wait. Wrong thing!

On that day, I will look at the entries and decide what I’ll do. I’d appreciate it if you based your front cover on the one that I have now… obviously it doesn’t have to be the exact same, but something like that would be nice.

You don’t have to do both a front and back cover. HOWEVER, I will keep in contact with the people who won and expect them to do spine dimensions for both hardcover and paperback, so… yeah. If you do a back cover (and winners, when you do spines) please keep the same colour scheme. Thanks!

these-stones-hardcover-front

Summary One:

After her mother’s divorce, Elissa Grayson moved to the other side of town, into a small apartment. The move combined with the transition from middle to high school was a nightmare, but she kept most of her friends.

However, when Elissa discovers a secret crystal in her backyard, she is plunged into a neverending war against an unbeatable enemy. But maybe… the answer is simpler than it seems.

Summary Two:

Liss is a normal girl in a normal world, just trying to navigate her first year of high school without utterly crashing. But then whispers appear, warning her to find a stone before the darkness controls them all. But when she finds the Stone, she accidentally brings to life a war that had been fought for centuries. As the battlefield slowly becomes her everyday life, how does she know who is friend or foe, and can she learn to control the White Room before it’s too late?

Signing off for now (and looking forward to your entries),

¬Sel

Minor Characters!

So, you’ve heard about main characters and seen pictures of THEM, but not some of my favorite minor characters! My first picture will be of Florence Lawrene, who also appears in my Harry Potter fanfiction.

svgA562907599690089She has multicolored eyes, wavy copper-colored hair, likes to wear ruffles, and is a Ravenclaw.

svgA7659979196348459Lilith is a muggle-born half-Asian Hufflepuff.

svgA3333258360498015Ryan is Larissa’s younger brother. He is a first year during her third year.

svgA6486087517609489Aislin also appears in my newest, almost-published book The Shadowbirds. She is classified as a youngling, being under five hundred years old.

 

svgA5806240434063843And last (but not least) is Emma Wespurt, whose intelligence rivals that of Hermione Granger and is a Ravenclaw.

 

Unfortunately, I do have sad news. I will not be able to post again until after June 26th. I will be active from time to time on YWP NaNo and on Camp NaNo, but I simply don’t have the time to post.

Character Headshots!

I made these at this awesome place right here that you should totally check out!

This first character image is Scarlet Arrow/Holmes/Lestrange (she exists in all three fandoms). She appears in my pjo fanfiction Arrow that you should also totally check out (shameless self advertising).svgA6689669751577596 Tada!

The second and  are both from my newer Harry Potter fanfiction and I love them dearly. The first is Amelia, and the second is Larissa.

svgA9610620798244793Amelia…

svgA45693261816810105Larissa.

And then, of course let’s not forget the star of my latest novel…

svgA5071649661773643Kayalinth!

And the star of my Camp NaNo novel…

svgA46326230868412277Ella!

And then, of course, there’s my side novel star…

svgA17761656872722353Alice Kirk.

 

I believe that’s everybody. Have a good week, everybody!